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 HE CALLED ME A DECEITFUL, LYING, ADULEROUS, WHORE I was already saved and baptized and yet even I couldn't escape the harsh names that ...

Wednesday, October 18, 2023



I was already saved and baptized and yet even I couldn't escape the harsh names that were intended to push me into better. I confessed and was baptized as a child, but it did not keep me from sin growing up. I wanted to do right, but the dark drew me closer and closer as I wanted to fit in, although I always stood out. I began a horrible relationship in the most wrong way at the age of 6 which led me to search love in all the wrong beds. Sexually confused, and a mark for men who knew who to give me my moment of satisfaction, I began to drown in my own self torment and shame. I was on a one way ticket to hell on earth with gasoline draws on. I went from molestation, to rape, to promiscuity, to marital rape and abuse, and finally adultery before finally being healed, delivered, and set free and in a new marriage being loved and cherished. 

When I reached the very end of my breakdown, I ran screaming to the Church asking for help. What lead to this moment was after fleeing my home because of an abuser and running into the arms of a user. I had had enough. However, before I knew where to run, I started seeking God and He answered me in such a harsh way (or so it felt). He took me to the book of Hosea and several other scriptures that described me to a tea. He called me deceitful, that I was deceiving men who did not know that, though I was separated, I was still married. I was lying to friends and family who had no idea I had been being abused for years and many other lies to make my life look polished. I was a whore by being so promiscuous regardless of things that happened to me. I was adulterous because I was cheating on my first love, God. 

Those who are stuck in sexual sin, especially homosexual, get offended from being called certain words that come directly from the Bible, but it was those very words that saved my life. We think that to love someone means that it should feel good and sound pleasing, but he who is not chastened is not loved. God loves those He correct. With this cancel culture, it is extremely difficult for people to get to the end of their selves, because their issue are never their own but the fault of those that are truly trying to help them see it is a better way. I was dying daily, and not to self but to my selfishness. Though my upbringing was challenging, there came a time in my life that I had to decide that though it may have been who I was, it was not going to be who I remained. I had to decide that just because things happened to me, they were not me. I could be the fearfully wonderful person that God predestined me to be, or I could continue to hold on to what the world was trying to shape me into being. I chose God, my first love. 

When we take the offense off of our sleeves and truly hear what is being said, we can see our situations for what they truly are and become who we are truly meant to be. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done!

Friday, January 15, 2021

My Birthday...My Transformation

 In the beginning...God created me in His image.

Somewhere in between...the world redefined that image with its backstabbing, lied on and lied about, misuse, abuse, rape, unacceptance, abandonment, deceit, gossip, slander, etc.

Then... I redefined it even more with my rebellion, sexual impurity, stealing, lying, gossiping, name-calling, back bitting, betrayal, deceit, slander, idol worship, etc. Regardless of my reasons, instead of following the rule to treat others the way I wanted to be treated, I began to treat others the way others treated me.

I, After I lost everything and gained it back, I learned:
- My strongholds could only be removed by prayer and fasting.
-If I rescued someone once I would have to continue to rescue them so it is best to lead them to the source that does the rescuing.
-If you are willing to do everything for someone, they'll let you and then blame you when it doesn't
work out.
-Every now and then it is okay for me to take time out just for myself without the stigma of being
-I don't have to feel bad about the success and blessings the Lord has given me in my life.
-Love those that despitefully use me cause in time they'll realize who I am.
-That just because people have a title doesn't mean that I should believe what they say. There is a
the reason the Lord says that His sheep know His voice.
-You don't have to tell someone off just because they have offended you. You can simply tell them
that they have offended you.
-Just because you forgive or have been forgiven, it doesn't mean you forget; therefore, you should
speak the forgiveness every time you remember.
-People come and go, but those that remain and fight the good fight shall receive the promise.
- There is no guilt or shame for a truly repentant person.

There is much more, but I will leave it at that for this birthday. The world may not be perfect, and I may not be all that I should be, but God shall have the victory and finish the work He started in me before the world knew me.

Thank you Heavenly Father for your kingdom and for giving me the tools to help build it and for doing your will on earth as it is in heaven. Father, thank you for this day and for my spiritual, as well as, my natural food on this day. Thank you Father for guiding my footsteps from the sins mentioned above and all other temptations that are common to me, and for delivering me from those that seek to harm me or mean nothing but evil towards me. Forgive me Lord for my sins mentioned above and even the sins that I committed unknowingly as I forgive those that I have hurt. Also, Father forgive me as I ask those in the past that I have hurt to forgive me as I also forgive myself. Father, you said that there is no condemnation for them that love the Lord. I thank you Father for those that you have allowed to stay in my life and for the ones that you have taken away...thank you for removing them. It's my birthday Father once again...Here I AM LORD...TRANSFORM ME! In Jesus Christ Name I pray...Amen

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